Title - Bedside Manner
Author - Dareetel
Beta -
Pairing - Renji x Ichigo
Rating - PG-15
Disclaimer - While I wish I did, I don't own Bleach.
Summary - "When will ya get it through yer thick head that ya don’t have to fight this war alone?”
Crossposted to bleach_yaoi
- Location:home
- Mood:
anxious - Music:Weird Star Trek Music
Ok, I know that Thanksgiving is over but it's still the holiday week-end. Anyway, my in-laws sent me this link that of course made me sniffle. But I just thought I'd stick it here so that I don't lose it. Simply because it is a good reminder. My hubby maybe deployed but at least we still have him with us. And I am thankful for that every damn day.
THANKSGIVING REMINDER
I ended up rambling so I stuck it under a cut ya'll wouldn't have to listen to me ramble on about the movie and memories the current song envokes. Just more Army crap, 'cept it's reminds me how fragile life is.
- Location:Home
- Mood:
thankful - Music:DAVE MATTHEWS BAND - The Space Between
So, sitting at home feeling like I just spent the last month trying to dig out of a hole. My hubby went back to Iraq 'bout a month ago and then I hear about a few IEDs in his AO and another of my former troops got hurt. I thought that I'd gotten used to this being a civilian thing but not sure I'll ever get used to it. At least, not while the war is going on and I still have guys over there. Shit, they aren't even mine anymore, haven't been for a few years but I still feel guilty for not being there. Feel like if I was there I could keep them safe, stupid I know but hey, over 15 years of training isn't going to disappear just because I've been retired for a couple of years.
My boys are having issues with this deployment...and I knew that was going to happen but still feel like I failed them somehow. Strange how when I was on Active Duty I never worried about them the way I do know that I'm home with them full time.
Try to tell myself it's better this way, that having one parent in a war zone is bad enough and that they don't need to go through having both parents deployed again but I still hate it. You know it's bad when you actually miss motor stables. Never thought I'd miss PMCSing a Hummer. Ahhh, the spell of MOGAS on a Monday morning. Gods, I'm pathetic. Finally went through my uniforms and got rid of most of them. Found out at Halloween that my 13 year old couldn't fit into my boots. Made me feel small. I mean, knew I was short and all but DAMN.
Of course, the silver lining in all this is that I lost weight. I'm down to my BNCOC weight which makes me happy. Especially since I had gained weight when hubby came home on leave. So nice to eat his wonderful cooking again. That's one of the things I miss the most (well, besides being able to sleep next to him and know he's safe). He told me he missed cooking too. He's staying away from the mess hall; oh, excuse me, DFAC. Can't blame him after what happened in DEC 04. And then a few days after he came home on leave we get a call saying that this DFAC had been hit. Think it was a mortar. At least his not working he's MOS this deployment. So he's having to deal with the command but not cooking. Thank heavens for small favors.
OK, think I've done enough whining for the time being. It's just so hard when almost all my friends are deployed. At least Desi is gonna be home by Christmas. She's glad to be coming home but not. I can understand that since her hubby will still be over there. But she knows Mo will be ok since my hubby is his PSG. We take comfort in some of the weirdest things sometimes :P. Of course, soldiers are just weird like that. I miss it sooooooo much. Ok, gonna stop now or I'll start being whiny again :D.
- Location:Home
- Mood:
aggravated - Music:SNOW PATROL - Chasing Cars
Author - Dareetel
Pairing - Renji x Ichigo
Rating - PG-13 - Language, Character Death
Disclaimer - While I wish I did, I don't own Bleach.
Summary - “When one’s Bankai disappears without permission from it’s master…that means the master’s time of death draws near.”
Dedication - To my brothers and sisters in arms. I miss you guys.
A/N - This is really short, pretty much written as a "vent" and to help me get through a really long night. The conversation between Ichigo and Renji, along with Renji's thoughts are derived from actual events. Please keep that in mind if any of ya'll decide to leave any comments.
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- Location:Fort Hood
- Mood:
indescribable
Probably wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't so pissed about not being over there myself. 15 years of leading troops and then I'm supposed to just sit back and let someone else take care of them? Bullshit! Those are my guys and my responsibilitiy and I HATE the idea of someone else leading them. They don't know these guys like I do, their strengths and weaknesses.
Actually, think I'm going to go write - - maybe if I can make a perfect world in my head the real one won't seem so screwed up. Just needed to vent a little, sorry if anyone got offended.
- Location:Fort Hood
- Mood:
frustrated
Author - Dareetel
Pairing - Renji x Ichigo
Rating - NC-17 for smut
Summary - He hates the rain. He’s never actually come out and said it but his body language screams it.
Spoilers - NONE - But if you are famaliar with Ch 17 - 25 of the Manga and/or Ep. 7 -10 of the Anime, this may make a bit more sense.
Disclaimer - Well, I don't own Bleach - just borrowing the guys and having them dance to my tune
A/N - So, taking a chance and posting my second RenIchi fic. Another first for me though, because I've never before written any...uhm...smut I'll call it. Let me know what you think and how I can improve, please. Hope you enjoy my little story.
The rain fell heavily on the roof of the small house. But the two lovers, buried in each other in the bedroom were oblivious to it. Lean, muscled bodies reflect the grey, afternoon light that filtered in through the window. Long, crimson hair fell over lean stomach muscles as Renji’s mouth trailed kisses down Ichigo’s chest. He lets out a small gasp of pleasure as his small, brown nipple is taken into Renji’s mouth. The moist heat of the mouth with the tongue rolling it between teeth that gently nips it. The sensation sends tiny shivers through his body. The look in Renji’s eyes as he glances up into the slightly flushed face can only be described as hungry. He keeps his gaze locked with his lover’s as he slowly kisses his way to the other small nub, grinning at the moan pulled from the body beneath his as his mouth latches on.
“Renji,” Ichigo’s voice is low as he pulls the red head up to his mouth. He traces the lips against his lightly with his tongue, gently biting on the lower lip before plunging into the waiting warmth of the other man’s mouth. Tongues duel, taste as Ichigo wraps his arms around Renji’s shoulders, pulling him closer. Warm breath ghosts over his ear before he feels the nips and sucks as Renji’s mouth works its way from his jaw to collarbone. He groans as he feels his erection rubbing against his lover’s. His hips arch up, trying to bring their bodies even closer together. His head falls back, granting greater access to his throat.
- Location:Home
- Mood:
lethargic
Author - Dareetel
Pairing - Renji x Ichigo
Rating - Probably M for language mostly
Summary - What happens when Ichigo gets sick?
Disclaimer - Well, I don't own Bleach - but if I did, thses two would be too busy doing other things to do any fighting :)
A/N - Well, here it is, my very first fanfic. I enjoyed reading so many wonderful fanfics that I figured Id go ahead try my hand at one. It has been quite awhile since I sat down to write anything and this is quite a diffrent type of writing then what I did many years ago - Hope you enjoy! Please comment with anyway I can improve this and the others that I've already started. Thanks
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- Location:Home
- Mood:
amused
